Dug me a hole, dare I climb out?

"Love is not the drama; it's the comfort. When I realise that for myself,
I will be an adult."
--Quoted from a friend who quoted from a chat friend

They were friends. That's all there is to it. They may not have spent a lot of time together but they talk. And talking is a big deal.

They say talk is cheap. But talk can also be the most valuable connection you have with someone. When you spend your time just talking, it heightens the trust. Although, at the same time, lowers the sheild. You bare your soul to the other person as you give him the edge. He has you. He now holds you in his hands. Your life, your thoughts, your being.

They talked. And she said just enough. Til she said too much. Too soon. And she knew that on the instant she opened her mouth. And she couldn't take it back. Well, she tried but it only made it worse.

She wanted to crawl back into her shell and never see daylight again. But he was there, just there, doing nothing. He was just there.

And she loved it when he was there.

Yeah, ok, so maybe he was there. But something's changed.

And she realized that he could be right in front of her and be a million miles away.

She looked at him. He looked back. But he didn't look at her. He looked through her. And the apathy she's seen in his eyes was a sobering hit.

The drama disguised itself as comfort.

Maybe she were an adult. Maybe.

Then again, she could be wrong.

Tonight, they'll talk, yet again.

But that's all there is to it. Just talk.

The song remains the same

Did you ever like somebody
but the timing was off?
You feel things
you should not be feeling

People can be attracted to other people
That's human nature
It's what they choose to do about it,
that's the thing

And she was finding in him that elusive measure of peace that she's been thirsting for. The few moments they shared, he's brought her bliss.

She herself was elusive everlong. She was wanting this but she felt it wasn't right. The timing was off. She was convinced that there was nothing there. And so with a heavy heart, she shrugged and walked away.

Some things just never change.

Look at the stars.

In a hundred years, no one will even know who we are.
But they'll know the same stars.